To: Elaine Hamarsheh

I think this question is a good example of Christian hypocrisy. It judges me to be a "monster", then assumes I must change in order to be a "loving soul". The irony is that if "E.H." actually read the Bible (which she implies in her comment that I haven't), then she might know that Jesus himself was judged by the religious hypocrites of his day (the pharisees) to be a "monster" (so to speak) as well. Jesus was convicted of the most foul and despicable crime imaginable in those times, the crime of violently violating the most "innocent of innocents", Yahweh Himself! Child rape and murder was not nearly as offensive or even criminal according to their laws and social customs. Thus, like me, Jesus was condemned by his culture, which sought to judge him as a "monster" rather than perceive him for what he was: a loving human being.

I'm not claiming that was I did was not monstrous, it was. So was what Jesus did, because that's what it means to be human! So, would I return to my monstrous ways? Or would I renounce my humanness and convert to the hypocritical ways of the Christian? Well, let me see... there's no question I would remain a "monster" in the eyes of people like "E.H.", that's fairly certain. But, I'm equally certain that I would not rape and kill any more children, only because it no longer seems necessary to me. That was the reason I stopped killing, after all, and turned myself in.