To: Nominal

I continue to "talk" even though so many "hate" me precisely because they do (hate me). Actually, I realize as I have said before in this blog that they really only hate themselves (i.e. "all hate is self-hate"). So I want to help them; but, not THEM, myself! Their hate is also my hate. No one hates in a vacuum, nor do we hate outside of ourselves. We do however project our hate outward. And in this vain attempt to escape our suffering we end up bringing even more suffering upon ourselves if through the world we live in.

And this "talking" I do is not only for those who hate me. It is for everyone, including (and especially) myself! When I go back and re-read some of the things I have written here I often feel as though I am reading something that someone else has written with me in mind. I learn, and I grow; and I remember! Enlightenment is, after all, an act of remembering (and becoming) who we already are, nothing more (or less).

So to the families of the victims, including my own family (and friends), and to EVERYONE, I would say the same: Listen, remember, and become. That's all this blog has ever been about. That's all life itself is about. There is no "us" and "them". There are no "victims" and "monsters". There is only One Being "talking" eternally with itself, and forever trying to remember what is already known. This is the message of The Fifth Nail, and it is for everyone, perhaps especially the ones who "hate" me, and the ones I once hated myself, my so-called "victims", who are really just projections of my own pain and suffering that I now wish only that I could embrace and thereby bring back into myself where everything belongs; everything, and everyone.

[J.D. May 21, 2019]